Tired

I'm tired of 'Church'.

I'm tired of people who go to 'Church'

I'm tired of playing for 'Church'

I'm tired of hanging out after 'Church'

I'm tired of going to 'Church'

I'm tired of having to walk through a door to get to 'Church'

I'm tired of spending so much time in 'Church' that I'm never out doing something for the lost

I'm tired of going through the same pointless conversations with myself because I'm to stubborn or lazy to do anything about my weakness', my sins, my failures.

I'm tired of willingly giving less than my best to some one who gave me everything.

I'm tired of double standards

I'm tired of cameras

I'm tired of dull worship

I'm tired of fake people

I'm tired of being fake

I'm tired of wishing life seemed real, but never stepping up to the plate to make it real

I'm tired of chasing after a life that is meaningless

I'm tired of be congratulated, admired, thanked, recommended, thought highly of, or complemented

I'm tired of life

Where is this life leading if not toward Christ? I'm tired of myself, and I realize it so often, but my nature is to be lazy and stubborn and I fail to make any steps in the right direction.

"This might hurt, its not safe, but I know that I've got to make a change
I don't care if I break, at least I'll be feeling something
Cause just OK is not enough, help me fight through the nothingness of life.

I don't want to go through the motions,
I don't want to go one more day
with out your all consuming passion inside of me,
I don't want to spend my whole life asking,
"what if I had given everything, instead of going through the motions?"

No regrets, not this time, I'm gonna let my heart defeat my mind
Let your love, make me whole, I think I'm finally feeling something
Cause just OK is not enough, help me fight through the nothingness of this life

I don't want to go through the motions,
I don't want to go one more day
with out your all consuming passion inside of me,
I don't want to spend my whole life asking,
"what if I had given everything, instead of going through the motions?"

_Matthew West: the motions



Its time for the Church to step up and step out, to start being real. Its time for ME to step up and step out. I'm tired of going through the motions.

If you read this I'm asking you: Call me out, don't be timid, don't be shy, I'm ready to be something more than what I am, and on my own I can't do that. I'm tired of a life that isn't 150% sold out to God, and I know I'm surrounded by people who feel the same way.